Indelible- Making marks that can not be removed

It so hurts my heart when I see girls dress like complete sluts and then wonder why guys only want them for sex. They don’t see what they’re worth. They won’t find a good guy until they have respect for themselves and find a guy that finds that hot. So girls, stop making it so easy for men to take advantage of you! You are precious, not meat. You deserve more than what you’re settling for!

Imprisoned But Choosing Freedom

Your life is a mess?

Your days are filled with hassles and pressures?

There are times when the pain is so intense physically or emotionally that you want to fall into a limp heap on the floor and yell “uncle” or disappear into the darkness of the closet and close the door?

The circumstances cannot be changed.

You’re in them and there’s no way out.

The door is locked.

Let me give you a word of encouragement.

* * *

What do we mean when we speak of the “soul”?

Well, the word “soul” comes from the Greek word psyche, referring to the invisible part of you, your personality (your mind, your will, and your emotions). Your soul is the real you—the person who laughs and talks, yells at the ball game, cries at sad movies, and sorts out all the information that comes into your mind.

There are people who are physically handicapped, whose bodies don’t function as they should, but their soul functions. Its like they’re in solitary confinement. There isn’t any vehicle through which they can talk to the outside world. Their defective body has imprisoned their soul because of its inability to receive messages from the soul or give messages to the soul. But the soul is all right—the “real” person.

Keeping that illustration of the soul in mind and realizing that the soul can be “separated,” so to speak, from the body, consider this verse:

Our soul has escaped as a bird out of the snare of the trapper; The snare is broken and we have escaped.
Psalm 124:7

Do you see that though you may be mired in difficult or even tragic circumstances, your soul is capable of escape?

Do you see that your ability to think and to choose, regardless of your circumstances, is free?

Oh, you can’t choose to walk away from those circumstances, but you can choose to not let them control your thoughts.

Your soul is free to wander where it will. The physical limitations that have been imposed on you in this world cannot place limitations on your soul.

You choose with your free will what you are going to set your mind on.

Of course, your emotions won’t understand—they dont have the capacity to understand, remember? They just feel.

But you have been set free!

For prison bars
cannot control
the flight
the freedom
of my soul.

I wanna reflect the light that shines from You. 

Truly, this is the cry of my heart. I want to be just like Jesus, I want to love like Him, forgive like Him, have compassion like Him, and feel His heart.

I know I’m never going to be perfect at it and that I’ll have my times of failure, but I want to be as genuine as possible. I never want someone to look at my life and see I’m living a double standard. I have seen how it tears people apart that are on the fence and they end up turning away from their faith. I don’t want to compromise in the small things. I know I won’t be perfect at it but to the best of my ability I will live a life that honors God and shines His love. I love Jesus so much, and I just want people to experience that love for themselves.

Praying you’ll come back. Praying that theres still a place in your heart that wants the unconditional love that Jesus gives. Praying i can make a difference.

So last night I sang a song at youth I wrote last year and today someone posted a blurb of the lyrics on Facebook!! When I saw it I wanted to cry tears of joy. Wow, maybe I really can make a difference. Maybe I can inspire people with the songs I write. It makes me want to chase my dreams even harder.

It’s really sad to see people run away from something they’ve known their whole life. It’s sad to watch them hate the things you love and you so desperately want to reach out and shake them to wake them up, but you can’t, you have to let them make their own choices and learn from those consequences. I had to, but the joy of it was that I knew I had someone to run back to, those steadfast people in my life that I knew prayed for me and waited for me to come around. You’ll come around some day, because I’m praying for you. 

On a completely different note: Christmas was amazing. I was one of the most hectic days I’ve have in a while but it was so worth it. We had to wake up early because we thought that we were needed to do the words for worship, but the guy ended up showing up. So we sat through service and then we got home, , opened gifts, got ready, wrapped a little bit and then we went to Jer’s uncles house and ate and had a nice time, then we got home, wrapped a little more and went to my Nana’s. It was such a nice time and I just loved spending time with all of my family and my new family! I was so excited to give everyone their gifts. Especially my parents. I knew my mom would love the earrings and tinkerbell bag i got her and I knew my dad would like going to see Rascal Flatts with me!!!! My Nana teared when she opened my gift of the picture of us from my wedding day and Barb teared up because I filled each of the 7 frames with pictures of the kids. My mom loved the snuggie I got for Precious….and the list goes on. It was really such a wonderful day. I do feel bad that it wasn’t good for everyone I know. It’s sad that you can’t enjoy the holidays, but I do hope that they made the most of it. 

I’ve also been doing some thinking and in this new year, I really want to start putting myself out there. Making a copyright name for myself and posting videos on youtube and just being willing to get my stuff out. How can I make a difference if I’m only in one place all the time. I mean, I think I do where I’m at, and I hope and pray I do, but I want to let people know (beyond the 8 walls of my church) that they are worth dying for. I want them to know that there IS hope and that life doesn’t have to be lived alone. I want them to know that they are loved beyond what they do.

Ok well I’m having deja vu right now and it’s really freaking me out. I never forget Allison saying that it means that you’re in the right place at the right time.

I need a haircut.